Looking for advice and/or people to talk with

I just feel like I'm failing across every dimension of my life. I'm on a gap year with no sign of being able to support myself any time soon. I'm in a third world country where part-times are non-existentent for entry level folk, and the full-time jobs available for highschool graduates with no other skills pay peanuts. I have no social life unless I'm going to school or uni, so that also means I don't have a social life until I'm back in uni.

There's nothing special in our local residence, and I don't go outside because we're broke. I'm home all day, every day. I don't go for walks because I've done it a lot in the past, I'm bored of it and it feels pointless.

Physical health is junk. Can't fix my sleep routine for the life of me. Can't change diet because I don't make any dough myself yet. Trying not to use porn and masturbation much, decent success with the former, not so much the latter.

Mental health is junk too. I get anxious and overwhelmed whenever I'm trying to work on anything. I still do, and have some consistency, but I can only work on 1-2 focused cognitive tasks per day (30 mins each) and that is all. I can barely do normal adult executive functioning and maintenance tasks, although this has improved a bit slightly. Therapists in the past thought I had ocd, adhd, and depression (can't get meds either for the same reasons).

I can't really rack up much progress and I feel I've just been stagnating the past year. I'm a little bit tired of quick repairs to cope, but everything "healthy" feels like a goddamn mental wall of awful. It's like I'm trying to move boulders with my mind.

No motivation and hobbies don't work for me due to my perfectionism, ocd, adhd, etc. Can't say I believe in a future vision and I'm not moving much forwards anyway.

I have no faith and the only thing I can bring myself to believe in is naught; meaninglessness.