Long story short I'm over 15k in debt due to poor financial decisions in the past. My interest is now accruing at a greater amount than my minimal payments that I can barely afford. I

I also have USAA, which for a time i could only mail in deposits which is how I was depositing money from one roommate but I guess the check got lost in the mail and I lose more faith every day I'll ever see it again. On top of that I have some other prior roommates that owe me money (over 2k combined) that I've also given up hope seeing again.

I recently moved (FL to CO) and once again due to my own incompetence (long story) I'm struggling to find a job that will keep my head above water. I could get 2 jobs but I seriously worry about what that will do to my mental health. I wanna go to nursing school soon and don't know how I could make that even work if I had to get 2 jobs.

I also have adhd. I'm down to 5 pills of my medication and because of the move and aforementioned money problems I can't afford to see a psychiatrist here yet to continue medication. I've also been struggling to get back in the gym making my body image issues even worse. I'm disgusted everytime I see myself shirtless. I've been taking my Ativan to help with my anxiety it's been so bad but I know better than to take it then go to the gym.

I'm so lost. Someone please help. Or at least hold me and tell me it'll be OK.