Do you ever get that feeling that youre existing just to be a supporting character on someone else’s story? One morning a former ‘friend’ messaged me, thought he was sincere in asking how am i. The conversation went on and on, only to end up knowing na he wants to have ‘fun’. I didn’t reply anymore. Alam ko na ibig sabihin nya

Another night, i cant sleep. I browsed my social media, then i saw this high school friend of mine. It’s her wedding. Kinasal na pala sya. She looks pretty and happy with her husband, which is also the guy i used to love.. She’s pretty, smart, rich kid from high school. Then she got this boyfriend, on and off relationship nila. Then one time they broke up, yun ata yung pinakamatagal na break up na nangyari sa kanila non. Tapos si guy, niligawan ako! My 3rd yr highschool heart, syempre sobrang excited kasi first time may nakapansin saken nung highschool sobrang dugyot ko pa non. Then after few weeks, nalaman ko na lang sila na pala ulit. The guy ‘broke up’ with me. Puppy love

The story goes on and on. Every time theyll break up, the guy will visit my place to vent out his feelings and Im there as a friend, to listen. I didn’t know they rekindled after so many years. Siguro that makes sense din coz they went on the same college nga pala, and I went on a state U coz i cant afford my tuition back then

And until now, unknowingly, nangyayari at nangyayari pa din.. The guys i used to date will just message me when they ‘wanna have fun’. In the first place they ghosted me so di ko alam san nila hinahanap yung lakas ng loob to message me back after leaving me for months with no communication. Hanggang ngayon, when i date guys, they’ll message me if they need something. Like a plan B. I think just like in highschool, I’m supposed to be here as a support to the main character of someone else’s story. Im here to be a cheerleader of someone else. And every night, when i need someone to talk to i should be my own cheerleader coz thats how i am made up. Plan B lang