I just want to tell you that I am a 33-year old guy currently working in the Middle East and here is my issue. I'm not sure if I suffer from bipolar disorder or adult ADD.

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I'm pretty sure my past has greatly affected on what I am today so I am going to confide in you these things. At the age of 5 I was molested by both my aunt and uncles. My 16-year old aunt would often bathe with me and let mo do things on her body that a 5-year old kid would not do. My uncles were also the culprit. They did unimaginable things on me as well. My parents were abroad at that time so they entrusted me and my siblings to my grandparents. I perhaps grew up in a household of people with high libido since my father was one as well. At that age I knew where his porn cache was. My sister and I saw the pictures from the magazine and imitated what the couples were doing from it. One day, one of my uncles, the one who did not took advantage of me, saw what we were doing and told us that what we were doing was bad. From then on we stopped doing it. I don't know if my sister could even remember this. The incidents with my aunt and uncles also stopped when I started elementary school.

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I grew up sexually deviant. I already masturbated at an early age. However, I knew that taking advantage of someone else was wrong. I never did any of those things with my classmates in elementary and high school. Although my closest friends call me "manyak" or what. I was already sexually active at 15 years old with my girlfriend who was my classmate at that time. Afterwards, I jumped from one girlfriend to another exploring my sexuality until eventually I got married.

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I learned that my wife suffered the same ordeal when she was a child. So we sort of connected. We were both sexually deviant. We wanted to explore our sexuality more by engaging in swinging. We experimented various things that other married couple probably has not explored. If I am on my own I would usually masturbate everyday whether it be at home or even at the office when no one's around. Perhaps every hour of the day I would think about sex. I have considered doing it with the same sex as well at the presence of my wife but I have never crossed that threshold yet. I'm still attracted more to women than men. Although, I sometimes find some men attractive. I could say that I am probably bicurious or something.

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Another thing about my personality is that I am fidgety. I could not stand any minute without doing anything. I always want to engage in something stimulating such as playing video games or reading novels while being idle in public. I usually have this habit of tapping my fingers or have a restless leg as well. Working as a professor in a local university before amplified my mania perhaps since I was channeling my excess energy in school activities that involves dancing and singing. I was the type of professor that would walk around the classroom while teaching. I could do this from 7 am to 7 pm without even getting tired. Guess what is the subject I excelled in teaching? It's psychiatric nursing.

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Aside from teaching I have a few passions in life as well such as writing. This is where I start one task after another without even finishing it. I have started a few novel projects and have only finished one of them. The others are left unfinished.

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I can be very talkative too. That is one of my traits that my wife dislikes. I could go on and on with stories in my mind. Sometimes my wife would get tired from listening to them. That perhaps is one of my flaws as well in teaching being talky or sometimes I talk so fast that my students would have a hard time catching up to what I was talking about that I have to repeat it. When telling stories, I sometimes jump from one topic to another as well. My friends in high school has observed this from me. One minute I was talking about a certain movie and how good it was the next minute I began another topic perhaps about a song or something. I do experience thought racing every now and then.

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Right now I am channeling all of my excess energy through cardio and weightlifting exercises. My wife goaded me to do it and I have started loving exercise since then. One more trait that I have is having a an overwhelming sense of optimism and confidence. My wife has pointed this out.

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With what I have mentioned, do I need any counsel or medications?