Hi. Been wanting to shut myself off the past few months after finding out that my SO and close friend betrayed me.

I cut (or scraped) myself twice, been having thoughts like I wanna die (been searching for ways to die in a painless way lol), I wanna cut myself again, and I wanna get revenge on both of them. There are days when Im okay, pero pag naaalala ko mga ginawa nila, mattrigger nanaman ako ulit, so I will just stay in bed all day long. This has been going on for almost 3 months already.

I feel like Im hurt kaya ganito response ko. I dont wanna say that Im depressed. So Im thinking of taking meds, pero ayoko magpaconsult. Ayokong magkwento sa doctor. I just want him/her to prescribe meds for emotional blunting/numbness.

Is this possible?