Since pandemic happened, my sleeping pattern distorted. Though we were on a lockdown back then, there are still days where I can’t get to sleep. 36 hours, then 55 hours. Not even a nap. At some point, I felt my body shutting down. But I fell asleep & woke up after 13 hours.

And still to this day, I still struggle. I guess I could blame the amount of caffeine I consume per day, being a coffeeholic I am. But that’s like, the only, and main sugary product I consume, I don’t even eat much. And I started drinking coffee at the age of 13. Sometimes, I even literally fall asleep while there’s still 1/4 remaining in my cup.

I often put my body clock in “reset” by staying up all night to day, so I can sleep the next night. And I do succeed. But after waking up from an 10-hour-sleep, I go on a sleepless night again.

I don’t meditate. But I tried to do those breathing exercises they claim to put you to sleep quickly. Still doesn’t work. Instead, memories, thoughts, & scenarios occupy my mind. I try to daydream if I can’t clear them off, but I still struggle.

I do intend to tell my psychiatrist about this on my next appointment with him, maybe there’s something more.

So right now, I just deep cleaned my room & I still have so many thoughts. I already had reset my body clock the other night.