i finally told my mom yesterday, through chat since i do not have the courage to tell it personally, about my most recent diagnosis, which is Borderline Personality Disorder, i also have Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Post-traumatic Stress Disorder.

i didn't expect her reaction, i almost thought that she invalidated me. she said that i am always sinusumpong and she's having a hard time understanding me sometimes. truth is, she is right and i told her that i am sorry because there were times that i cannot understand myself too but i did my best to control my feelings and emotions.

i am so proud of myself for opening things up to my mom and for slowly breaking down the walls that i built. it was not easy, but i need to do something to fix my relationship with her because i do not want the pain to costs me too much regret in the end.

in due time, everything will be okay.