So backstory I (20M) noong Bata pa ako is we were just fair off in terms of wealth, pero may times na walang Wala kami makain to the point na mangungutang kami and babayaran sometime or talagang kapos to the point na it took 1 year bayaran. There's also points na iiwanan ako for some days and di pa sila umuuwi tapos Wala na ako food... Nung naayos na financials namin nag okay naman na ako pero I hid food in my room everytime I got money like to the point na hoarding sardinas, corned beef etc etc also there came points wherein nagpapaayos or magbabayad na Yung family ko (Tito/mom) and suddenly iiwan ako to go somewhere and left me there for hours on end with nothing and no one Kasi "babalik din sila may aayusin lang". Dun ko talaga naisipan I needed to save money just in case iiwan talaga ako nila for real and I needed to pay or get home safely.... Now present time, may pera akong naka save up pero takot na takot akong gumastos even if it's for my sake or welfare din naman... Like, kahit mismong matamlay na ako sa gutom ayaw ko parin gastosin...