so ayun, i was able to talk to this girl, and i knew she was smart kasi alam mong may sense kausap (also she was running for magna cum laude) kahit may landi on the side HAHHAHAHA we had a 4 year gap (i was the older one) and it was kinda funny kasi she asked me what it felt like to be 26 years old, like have u got ur life figured out topic.

then one day ayan biglang nawala, she unfollowed me and removed me as a follower and disappeared. i mean, i understand naman, no hard feelings. pero i greeted her happy new year, tas ayun sabi niya i was too good for her. i honestly will not believe it when someone tells me that. kasi ewan i've been through a shithole years before, and i think i earned the healed version of myself that i have rn.

i eventually came to terms na sadyang di niya lang talaga kaya ibalik yung kaya ko ibigay kaya siya nawala, pero ewan bat parang i feel like i dont deserve anything just because i made myself better. like idek anymore HAHAHAHA parang this made me feel like i dont even wanna take anything serious anymore (when it comes to talking people ha) i mean, i honestly dont want to but times be testing me HAHAHHAAHA :(