tw // emotional abuse and childhood trauma

I am thinking of living away from my parents due to traumatic memories that keeps me think about it up to now. I was emotionally and mentally abused by my parents since childhood. Sinasaktan nila ako at sinisigawan kapag nagkakamali ako. It stopped siguro grade 5 dahil sinumbong ko sila sa kaklase ko and teachers pero iniisip ko na that time tumakas. The memories were vague enough that I don't want to remember bigla nag flashback sa akin ngayon. I am staying with them until now na college na ako. I have a condo pero hindi ako maiiwan iwan nila tsaka iniisip ko sila din naman magbabayad kung saan man ako pupunta. Gusto ko mag part time to have my finances pero hindi ko alam if may oras pa ako. The PTSD flashbacks are bothering me :(