I was diagnosed with MDD years ago (2017?). The diagnosis turned into Bipolar II at some point. I medicated for years and also went to therapy. I felt okay. I've been stable for years as a freelancer.

Just this year, I landed a full-time job. I still keep an eye on my workaholic tendencies but I noticed that I've been drinking on weekdays again. I am passionate about this job and I know myself when I really like something, I obsess about it to the point of self-destruction (losing sleep, not eating, overthinking, taking in more tasks than I could handle).

I'm not sure if this is something I should tell my manager. I don't like a special treatment. I like being challenged. I like getting out of my comfort zone but at the same time, this isn't something neurodivergents can do with ease. I still have poor self-image and I go blank whenever I'm trying to present something. I can't even tell a coherent story during casual conversations.