So, I have a friend. This friend of mine, who happens to be female, has a very similar cocktail of mental and physical issues to the one I have, to such an extent that we're seeing the same exact therapist for the same exact reason, while taking the same exact kind of medicine.

Looks like this friend's got a boyfriend now, and finding out about it made me feel sick, despite the fact that I would never make a move on her - I'm aware of the fact we'd be a horror show as a couple, and I like her too much as a friend to even consider making a move on her, anyway.

So, why did I react like I was some kind of incel? Well, it didn't take long for me to find the answer: this guy - whom I know, not very well, but enough to know he's a chill dude - is quite tall and perfectly proportioned on one hand, and very eloquent and funny on the other hand. Compare and contrast with me, a guy who's on the frail side and quite short on one hand, and kind of weird as well as painfully introverted on the other hand.

So, it looks like even among socially challenged people, there seems to be a very definite hierarchy, and those who are more "normal" are higher on it. After all, I wasn't the one making gay jokes about her until she told me to stop it, she was the one making gay jokes about me until I told her to stop it - and this, when she was right in the middle of her "no one will ever love me and I will die alone" phase.

Also, she thinks Lestat from the Anne Rice novels is husband material rather than an abusive creep, but that's yet another can of worms. XD