I texted a pro domme she was about 30 years older than me (19M) and we met in the street, i told her that i didnt know if i was going to come at time (i lived a bit far) she told me to try it, i came like 15 or 20 min later and didnt find her so i came back to home, i told her that i was really sorry and she then told me to come to her house, i did and i didnt liked how she looked but was so nervous to say no so first when she told me to undress, and wear a fresa and gag on a dildo i tried to not do it by putting my face away, she made me do it, she really didnt look like a cis woman so i asked her if she was (i know It was gross but i wanted to be dumped) i was really an idiot too because i was thinking about taking the money and go, we talked about this and she asked me for my life and told me to stop being an idiot i wish i didnt thought about taking the money because she made me put in my fours and take her dildo, i told her that i was dizzy, she told me to get on my knees and told her again that i wasn't feeling right, then she said "come on, on your knees", i obeyed her while i tried to not look my shamed face in the mirror she had, after that she told me to lie down, she tried to piss on my face i told her no like 3 times until i got serious and told her that i was not going to do that and i started crying for being my first time like that and feeling like a coward, after that i got dumped from her house, i must say that she said in the web what she did, and she didnt told me about any safe word i could use