Evil.

I had someone who I called a friend make everyone in my friend group turn against me since he claimed I did something wrong to him. His response to me was full of lies which I disputed but I was alone for a full month as he dated my best friend and had no one talk to me.

Later on, my best friend came back, upset and saying “your right about him. im sorry for never listening” as he cheated on her, stalked her, and tried to continue manipulating. I wish I never met the guy, he ruined my first college year, and he ruined my best friend for so long.

The lyrics of “Everything I expressed, I professed it never quite made it though” - I tried to tell everyone but no one believed me

“Said its all in my head, all in my head, whenever I spoke my truth”- He told me it was all in my head, im not kidding he flat out told me that. Many people did.

“No, I wont defend you to all my friends, this time i refuse.” - and the moment I didn’t defend him, I lost my friends besides 2. When they realized who he really was, some tried to come back, but some didn’t.

Its insane how this song is 1:1 to this situation I had with this person. It definitely brings up trauma, but in a way, its also theraputic to listen to it, to know throughout everything that I am still happy. I didn’t let him get to me, I didn’t let him ruin my happiness, the one he focused on trying to destroy.