(please read if u wanna hear a light hearted rant) 💕i feel like someones gonna make a point about me being “obsessed” or “weird” but i genuinely need to talk about this.. i went to brisbane show for the portals tour to see melanie for the first time and it a was a great show.. i cried when she came out to sing death ofc .. this is the person who genuinely raised me better then my parents did.. but at the end of the show she suprised with highschool sweet hearts .. it was always been my favourite song from her and it will forever will be.. but i have used that song almost as therapy and it hold so much Trauma and hurt for me .. as i have used melanie and mostly that song to help recover and heal from things in my life .. but when it came on .. im getting emotional even thinking about it .. i genuinely nearly collapsed and i know its just a song and it may seem embarrassing but this song has saved me so many times and to hear melanie perform it .. i shut down .. i felt like the only person in the crowd my brain had never felt so quiet in my life .. it felt like a stab to the hard she had taken all my pain from me that moment and i haven’t been the same its been a few months and i just listened to the song for the first time and it hurts so badly this song feels so powerful to me i physically cannot take it.. and please just take this lightly.. but melaines music might be just another song in ur playlist and to some they might be in the same position as me.. i always feel uncomfortable when people make me feel creepy and obsessed when i tell them how much rely on her music and yes i know its not “heathly” but this is MY coping mechanism that my body has chosen.. i just needed to rant and im sure i could talk about this forever but yeah.. 💕