(E–, please, I need this one to stay up. It might be my last idk.)

So hey. Partially pink hair girl coming at you live with a heart = demolished. Like there's a knot in my stomach and my chest hurts? Might be my last post, maybe not. Idk. 

Quick pity party. Today I woke up, opened my phone, and it only took 5 seconds of being awake to start crying because, of course, a new Reddit break up. This one really kicked me in the gut though. I thought this one was here for the long haul. He told me that’d be the case. Being wrong about something like that really, really feels $htty and that's me understating it. All of a sudden all these holes appear in your day where you’d usually talk and stuff. There's a big emptiness suddenly. (This happened with you, E—, too.) 

I realize that feeling disposable is just another form of grief. And grief sucks so, so much too. 

Existential questions from the reddit girl possibly losing it: How does a staple in your life leave you overnight, while you’re asleep? How is the worst part of it all is that you didn’t get to say goodbye back? 

Ok, sorry, now I’m grossing myself out with my sadness. No more crying for this pink haired girl (for now). I’m working tonight until 11:30pm PST. And usually I’ve got someone making me laugh or talking to me about life but obviously not anymore. So, please come say hi to me and let’s keep each other company while I work on my project. I promise I won’t be mopey. In fact, all these feels have somehow made me feel more chaotic than usual? Probably not good. When in Rome, I guess? (Does anyone remember that Anchorman scene? Lol) 

Facts about me:

-obvious: my hair is partially pink, specifically my side bangs

-I’m a poet

-I’m a glutton for punishment 

-My favorite music artist is Mac Miller

-I’ve learned that one of my favorite things to do is connect with people.  

-I love reading but while I own over 450 books, I mainly read smut. Sue me. 

-I’m terribly bad at selling myself in list form.   

You've got nothing to lose. Hmu and we’ll have fun, or your money back (as in $0 because I’m not charging you?). Ok see ya bye! ;) 

My eternal love,

Partially Pink Hair Girl

27ish - 45ish yo please!