Partially pink-haired girl here. Not fishing for replies. I’m gonna misuse this space and pretend like I’m writing a farewell letter with a quill pen and ink to a lover I’ve let loose. Cool? Cool. 

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It’s the second time saying bye. And it feels a lot like choking. And also like someone tipped me out of a plane before I could remember anything about harnesses and parachutes. And my whole chest hurts in this really weird way that makes me think I should call a cardiologist. I’m a poet and I don’t even have a word to describe this. 

I got shoved back into the arms I came from. Which is probably for the best. I feel petulant, though, like an angry toddler saying it didn’t have to be this way. But it’s more that you are your way. And with you, this is how things go. 

Things you should know (only the good stuff this time):

You’re gonna be fine. So fine. Promise. 

You’re gonna feel better so soon. I hope you keep trying to feel better and better. Advocate for yourself the whole time. Pretend I’m there and imagine the hell I’d create for them until you got every bit of care you needed. 

You’re gonna find someone really good for you. It’ll feel like coming home. It’s a wonderful feeling that you’ll get to feel soon. 

You’re going to be so happy with all the good things headed your way soon. I’m excited for you. 

You’re very kind and sweet and thoughtful when you want to be, so you should remember that when you decide you want to keep being that way all the time.

You’re not destined to be left out of certain things in life because of upbringings, life experiences, or something you missed out on back then. You’ve got this huge life ahead that I can practically imagine myself, and it’s full of stuff that says FU to that past crap. 

You’re more than you give yourself credit for. A little bit of a know it all. But you do know a lot so I didn’t mind it too much. You’ve got a lot in you and it’ll serve you well if you let it. 

This is by far the worst goodbye out of all of them. Not even the closure poem made me feel better and you know Ada always makes everything better. Sorry I had to pull the plug. I had to do what was good for you too.