A few of the recent posts reminded me of a lingering question I have. Hopefully, I can ask it here.

My brother died in 2019 from complications due to cancer, at the age of 34. He and I were very close. I have multiple siblings but I was always the most connected to him. When we were kids, we saw 'ghosts'. As you age, you talk yourself out of it more, but we both still swore it actually happened when we would get to talking - just the two of us.

Anyway, so if I believe those experiences were real, then I believe them to be spirits/souls/former humans/etc. I also am not religious and am only clinging to a tiny thread of belief in an afterlife at this point. I have seen multiple mediums, and some of them - there is no way they could have known the things they did unless it was real. So my head is full of conflicting thoughts on the topic. My brother and I considered ourselves agnostic. Which I like to say just means I'm lazy lol.

I was with my brother for the last three days of his life. While he was going through the active dying stages (at home). I read up on it so I would be prepared and could be strong for him. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to force myself to do. We had already buried so many family and friends, including our mother. But to be there and watch him die, I did not want to do that. But I did - for him. So he wasn't alone.

He was incoherent for a lot of the time, mumbled a lot and said things we couldn't understand. However, there were a couple things I picked up on. He was trying to find his suitcase (He did not own one). He was going on a trip (He never traveled). He was going "home." He was already at home, and I knew he meant HOME- like his soul was going back to where it came from. He also said circle/circles a few times. At one point he went from being totally out of it to sitting straight up, putting out his hand and talking to his deceased best friend- right in front of me. The smile he had on his face, I'll never forget it. After a few moments, he laid back down and went back to being out of it.

So here is my question- What is 'home" in this sense? And what is the spiritual connection to circles/a circle. I've tried to look into but haven't found much.

Thanks for reading. I appreciate any insight!