Hi y’all! Some background - I’ve been sitting on and off for a few years now and more recently, in the past 4 months, I’ve had a more consistent sitting practice of 30 minutes to an hour every day. In sitting I usually focus on the sensations of my breath for the first 30 minutes, then do open awareness for the next 30 minutes. I also throw in some self compassion meditations as well.

I’ve been noticing fairly large mood swings day to day. Some days I wake up feeling great, ready to face whatever challenges arise. This is accompanied by a feeling of lightness, ease and relaxation. Other days I wake up feeling tight, frustrated, angry, closed off and anxious. These feelings mostly persist throughout the day.

I will say that I definitely have more good days now that I’ve been sitting regularly, but it seems to be a double edged sword in the sense that the bad days seem more frustrating, especially after a good day. And I’m also much more aware of the feelings of contraction or expansion when they occur - I just feel a bit helpless when it comes to the feelings of contraction.

Writing this in noticing how much I’m using the words “good” and “bad” which maybe can point me in a direction. But I was just curious how others handle this feeling of expansion and contraction. Thanks in advance!