Just got done meditating for 15-30 mins, I don't know how long. I have death anxiety, and I thought something that might help was focusing on the present moment, and ONLY the present moment.

To me, it's much easier to meditate for longer when you DON'T count your breaths. Counting breaths does still the mind but for me it roots my brain in a certain perception of the past, present and future. I know that I take 130 breaths in 20 minutes. That makes meditating for 20 minutes seem a lot linger than it really is.

When you just want to be in the present, losing count of your breaths encourages you to stay just a little longer. As opposed to before where I could feel just how long I'd been meditating and would be really anticipate opening my eyes come time.

Of course, without something to do, my ADHD brain ran amok with all sorts of thoughts. Chattering away. A couple times I even opened my phone to google things that had come to mind. I have to work on that one, obviously. But as I stayed there it got a little easier, bit by bit, to bring my mind back to my body, even if only for a few seconds.

For what it's worth, I would rather hear my own mind chattering away than think to myself, okay, 20-minute meditation... breast 1 out of 130, breathe in... Maybe that makes me bad at meditating, but one of the pieces if advice I had heard was to not force yourself, and hey, that suits me fine.