I recently stopped working at a job for which I was extremely dispassionate and which used to suck the energy and motivation out of me.

I've been using the past month for rebuilding myself, and have been getting deeper and deeper into spirituality, meditation, reading, and reflection. While this has really helped me grow and get over some fears and anxieties and see my blindspots (even helping me finally kick the habit of biting nails after 25 years, which happened quite naturally without any conscious effort), a nagging question keeps resurfacing from time to time - am I just using the time to escape from the inevitability of finding my next job and responsibilities? I was in a senior position, but the act of networking to find a new job and putting on the same mask of a go-getter and all-in-one package person is too inauthentic for me. I keep questioning why I'm feeling guilty for taking time off for myself (first time in a decade), and whether I should just keep running as I used to. On the other hand, I also know that my heart truly lies in finding myself, but fear whether it's too early to call it quits (still in early 30's), and that if I continue in the path I am, I may just drift too far apart to come back. I'm also married, so it makes things more complicated (though I really love my partner) - but not as complicated as having kids. My partner says I am more peaceful than before and is as supportive as possible, and I help as much as I can to make life simple for us.

Any helpful tips?