I don't know if my dislike for programming comes from my mind / ego "not wanting to be here right now" or it is because i really SHOULD change my profession. If it's the former, then changing profession won't help.

There is a feeling of unease, frustration, "despise", when I'm working but not when I'm doing other stuff. It is extremely difficult to motivate myself to complete tasks, even minor ones. Is it pure laziness coming from strong out of touch from Presence?

I've been struggling with this for a while now because I want to practice the act of surrender or letting go.

How do you differentiate between the mind trying to not 'Be Here Now' and hence creating unease VS the unease stemming from a life situation that actually needs changing? In other words, how do you differentiate between intuition, which comes from the higher Self, vs the force of fear/desire arising from the Mind-Body / Ego?

Any advice?