Hello all!

Just inquiring into medicinal marijuana usage. I'm not familiar with the terms either so apologies in advance!

Basically I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and have been dealing with these issues for a long time (10 years ). I have also done counselling and therapy over the years and was recently advised by my therapist to try antidepressants since I was learning all I needed to know from her in order to help myself get better but I would fall into these dark, low, depressive states that would last for weeks and perhaps taking medication would help me on a chemical, physiological level before continuing with therapy and putting that knowledge into practice.

At the moment it's difficult for me to take pills because as a teenager I tried to OD by taking a handful of random pills so now the feeling of having a pill go down my throat makes me nauseous and I can't do it unless I take them with food which is something I'm also struggling with. For example for years I've only eaten one meal a day and that was dinner so trying to adjust to eating breakfast just to take my medication is becoming a struggle as I have no appetite in the morning and thought marijuana would also help with that. On top of that I've noticed after taking my antidepressants for a month, the last few weeks I've had trouble sleeping. For example I will stay awake until I fall asleep out of exhaustion mainly caused by constant thoughts, emotions, anxiety and being unable to relax.

I used to smoke 2 years ago and that lasted for about 6 months and I remember just enjoying life. Being confident to be in my own skin. Being confident to leave home on my own since I have social anxiety. Being in touch with my emotions. Not being drowned by negative thoughts. It was a really amazing time in my life and I'm hoping to get the same relief now as I'm struggling a bit more and would really like things to shift and change in my life for the better :)

I am nervous about contacting my GP in regards to trying medicinal marijuana though. I don't know if she's the type of person to support this type of thing. Just looking for some advice and support I suppose. Thank you for taking the time to read this if you have! Much love! 🙏