I’ve started a new job as an MA in a small office. They train you so I didn’t get any certification and it’s my first job in this kind of setting. It mainly involves taking vitals and inputting them in the computers, checking in and out patients and the usual admin work, which for me was new so there was a big learning curve.

I’d say for myself i’m not doing too bad i’m picking it up well. The first weeks I hated it and dreaded going to work I couldn’t really tell why but then it clicked.

There aren’t many people in the clinic and the doctor im working under has never introduced themself to me, never addresses me by name. If having a conversation with someone I’m not included, I know they aren’t talking to me. If they do talk to me it’s to yell at me for any mistake I’ve made.

The other day I inputted the vitals but on the computer they didn’t refresh. They yelled at me and as I was getting up to fix it I said no no they are in it just needs to be refreshed and they flipped out, that it was disrespectful.

I don’t want problems. I understand they don’t owe me anything I am no one. I also understand they want things a certain way and doctors don’t have time. It’s solidified that I am the dispensable medical assistant. I’ve been rolling with the punches and keeping it moving but sometimes the yelling memories linger and I’ve literally been having dreams of work.

Is such an un-inviting atmosphere normal? It makes me feel like I am so disrespectful and incompetent. I generally try to be agreeable but at the same time communicate what is going on, and it seems to be making things worse. I just want to put my head down and do my work and keep it pushing but seems like I’m always making mistakes.