Well. What a horribly, unoriginal opening line. Forgive me as this is actually my first time posting anything. And both figuratively and literally my ankles are sweating from nerves lol

So long time lurker, very seldom responder, first time poster here. And honestly? I don't know what I'm looking for here. I don't know if this is just a 2am brain dump because I'm frustrated and tired or if this is a desperate attempt at finding something that I so desire.

A bit about me? I'm 32, bisexual, married (obviously) with a small child. I'm stuck in the dreaded dead bedroom/roomate stage and have been for awhile. I am a hard worker both in my professional life and my personal life. I am sarcastic and witty, nerdy and excitable, and I long for a connection that sets my soul on fire. I am an extroverted introvert. My top clifton strengths are positivity, learner and WOO (winning others over) and...that tells you a lot about what you're getting yourself into. I am curious. I ask questions. I engage. I match intensities. I am thoughtful in my replies.

So I know what you're thinking? Where's the catch? My body leaves a lot to be desired. I'm more than just curvy. I'm the dreaded "midsize" gal that's too fat to be just chubby but too skinny to be called a BBW. It's a work in progress but very much it is what it is. So because I know it matters, I feel like I should adress the literal elephant in the room. I understand I am not what 80% of partners on here desire. I'm not trying to lull you into a false sense of desire with humor and connection, only to then become some kind of personality catfish. So. I'm fat 🤷🏻‍♀️

If you're still here after all that? Here's what I am looking for: something real. I don't have expectations of what that looks like. I just know that in the brief interactions I've had here? I don't think I've found it. I want someone who is genuinely interested in seeing if there's a connection. Building on that connection. Forming a bond. I'm not afraid of catching feelings, you shouldn't be either. I want to be able to talk to you. I want to message eachother, talk on the phone when we can, video chat, even meet up eventually if the stars align and that's even a possibility. I do understand our situations though can limit responses. I'm not expecting you to be up my butt all the time. But I am looking to chat as much as we can.

What I'm not looking for is just something sexual. Let's be honest, if we are both here we know it's something that is desired. Ive not read a singular post here thats like "sex is amazing but what I'm looking for is connection." If I was just looking for sex, I'd have an Only Fans and get paid to interact. You know? Connection makes this more fun. It makes it mean more. So, although this is important and it does matter, I am looking for something more substantial.

So. If after all that, I still have your attention? Why not message me? What would it hurt? Worst thing that happens is we don't mesh and no harm, no foul. I will warn you it's way too early here and I might lay back down. So. If you message and I don't respond right away? Don't worry.

I hope to hear from you soon. If this flops and no one responds, I'm 1000% deleting this and never posting again 🤣