I don't know really where to start tbh. Maybe I will just start with a description of myself.... well I am 23 and obviously a male I'm 6'2 and have a dad bod purely my worst quality lol unless you are into that (hopefully). I am also married so maybe that's a plus too and yes she knows I am on here. We can talk more about it if you decide you wanna talk to me.

Now to the reason I am here and hopefully it's not taken as a rant but who knows maybe it is. It's honestly a little hard, to not talk about it but to genuinely put it into words; it seems to be.

I work but I have a lot of free time consistently throughout the week and then of course the weekend. So there is the start of my issues lol, next is my genuine issue is of being anti social I genuinely don't know why buy maybe its a self esteem issue (I used to be very inshape) or the fact that I can be awkward or talk to much. But combine that with too much idle time and it's developed into an absolutely life crushing loneliness. Now you might wonder about the marriage part, we'll my wife is a very busy person and of course I am not, there is essentially no time currently for us to be together and she is asexual so hopefully that answers the question no one asked.

I have tried with hobbies, and still do have a few they are just not very immersive with others, they can be but I am anti social and it's difficult. I'm very new to all of this and seeking a genuine connection I am not needy but need something more than nothing. I crave companionship and conversation and it's genuinely all I can think about all day.

Now to I guess the fun part or not so fun part for me rn lol. It's not a necessity but definitely something I am hoping for and for me, one of the biggest learning curve I'm trying to figure out. Now that I am ALLOWED to sexually explore I don't even know where to start; coming from an almost strictly vanilla life for about a decade with less partners than a hand that has almost all fingers amputated off.... it's a huge learning curve and the issue is it's overwhelming and I want more and to experience a lot and or whatever kinks someone is willing to expose me to. Sexual exploration is one of my fantasies and a part of the craving for companionship.

What I am looking (no strict limits) but hoping for is I think I would like someone preferably older than me 25 and I honestly don't know a max age rn, someone who can talk and make good conversation, I like to be discreet so preferably not public settings (I would love to hangout, watch movies, pay games maybe?, cook dinner, cuddle, etc), hopefully someone who has a high sex drive???, or needs a boy toy (I am down to be free use for someone at anytime of day), someone disease drug and dramma free as I am, and maybe I mean maybe someone who shares closely the same issues that I have.

Well thats me so please dm me I am always open to chat thanks for reading if you did ;).