Well, I've been married for 11 years, both 36yo, two kids... Our sexual relationship developed in me a real worship for my wife's ass with exhibitionist tendencies. My biggest fetish is seeing her wearing provocative outfits in public places (specially tiny bikinis) but also daring with all kind of short/tight/transparent clothing. I have to say that seeing her parading her bare arse is my most firing lust. In fact, I like that she attracts staring and that makes me very horny. It is important to say that we do everything together with mutual consent (including this profile).

Trying to rationalize, it's like I want to secretly scream to the world how hot my wife's ass is and assert my position as an alpha male that she's only mine. Like a trophy I can to flaunt. It sounds perverted (and maybe it is) but it is the most rudimentary way I can explain my condition by being honest with myself.

Could it be a paraphilia? A mental disorder?

Does anyone go through something similar?

We don't have an open relationship or swing experiences... On a daily basis, we are a normal couple with family and friends who can't even imagine our exhibitionist adventures.

One more thing... I'm not and nor do I intend to be a cuckold (no judgment here). It's just something that neither excites nor attracts me. To be honest, the idea of another man having sex with the my children's mommy seems unconfortable and a little scary.

I have received some private comments that this is the path a "cuckold in the making" takes on its journey. But I don't see myself in that life in the future with my wife. I've been married for 11 years in this particular lifestyle and the "turning point" never crossed our mind. I would like to understand my desire better. I think this is the perfect place.

I'm open to questions in the thread, please don't DM.