I just have to let this out to people who might understand my situation.

I met this guy off of Reddit a while ago with the intention of hooking up when I was in his area. He was hot, and I really didn’t care about anything beyond that. We had a month before we were planned on meeting, and in that time we got pretty close though.

When we did finally meet, we only had a short evening together, but it was the best night of my life. He was so sweet and funny and charismatic. I was just so impressed with everything about him. And, of course, the sex was more than I could have ever hoped for.

In the month since then, we couldn’t meet anymore, but he opened up more, and I realized I had never met someone so similar to me. Every message I got, I was instantly smiling like a schoolgirl, but anything too personal or deep, he seemed to shy away from so I knew my place and didn’t push.

I had the opportunity to have another affair, and he enthusiastically encouraged me to go for it. So I did. It lasted multiple days.

I was then blindsided by him telling me he was too jealous, he felt our experience together was cheapened because I had fucked someone else like that, and his feelings for me were stronger than he thought. He said we could be friends, but we should take a step back. I replied telling him I understood and how hurt I was that he feels differently about our night together, but he hasn’t replied, and I don’t even know what to say if he does.

I had been dreaming of the day we could get back to our dimly lit hotel room again, and I could lay my head on his chest and hear the sound of his heartbeat mixing with the rain sprinkling outside, but that’s gone now.

I’m just devastated. I obviously don’t have anyone to talk to because we’re both married and weren’t supposed to meet in the first place. I’m sure someone here knows how it feels to lose a relationship like this so if you need someone to cry with, I’m here!