..imagine where we could have been now, the inside jokes we could be telling one another, like the time when we decided to watch the office together, only you didn't tell me that you preferred watching the American version! Come on, everyone knows Ricky Gervais is much better than Steve Carell.

Just think about how open and vulnerable we'd be around each other now, you know how much i dont like to talk about my family dynamics, and i know it bothers you talking about your disfunctional extended family, but it helps knowing we can share these things without fear of judgement.

Remember those late night chats, talking about everything which occupy our thoughts, even though you weren't a night owl, there was something about sharing that time together, like the world stopped for us, then eventually it would take us 17 minutes just to say goodnight!

You said you always looked forward to waking up, because there would be a message from me as im normally up earlier than you, i remember you saying how much you felt noticed, and cared for, because no matter what was going on in our lives, we always found a way to check in on one another.

I loved the effort you showd me, even though id never ask for anything, not even a photo, you still went out of your way to tease me, that's how I know what we have is special, it was effortless, how we intertwined our lives.

But you didn't reach out, you somehow thought against the notion of getting to know me, thought it best you remained in the shadows, lurking.

And now the new year is upon us, will we see a bolder, new you, will you be more daring, will you take the chance to just reach out? Or will you let another opportunity of finding your person slip away?