My God this place is so frustrating. I have been here chatting off and on for several months. An insanely perfect chemistry and connection found me once. He checked all of the boxes, even ones I didn't know I had. But after about 7 months of sexting, he ghosted me. Because of course he did. I understand that is a common practice here, but I don't understand why we can't be respectful of one another and behave like adults with proper social and interpersonal skills. I am not here for games and I hope you aren't either.

Ever since he disappeared, I have been trying so hard to find that magic again. That spark. That perfect chemistry that exists in a beautifully filthy mind that mirrors my own. A certain kind of sweet and primal debauchery that drives me absolutely crazy. I have posted many of my own R4R requests and responded to countless others and I am constantly met with disappointment. I am frustrated beyond words.

Yes, I am very picky (and you should be, too).

Yes, I am bitching and moaning.

Yes, I would much rather just be moaning.... For you, perhaps?

About me:

I am married and on the East Coast. I am 44 with fair skin, brown hair, green eyes, and somewhere between curvy and bbw.

I am not perfect, but my body type has been very well received here (especially combined with the dirty mind behind it). I am told that I look good/young for my age. I have no issues sharing media and verifying, but I won't show my full face.

I am intelligent, creative, confident, a hard worker, and very much in charge in daily life. However, I love stepping outside of this role and being softer, feminine, and submissive with my chat partner.

I absolutely adore anal (and DP) and am on a gaping mission that would greatly benefit from the guidance and desire of a chat partner to share it with.

I also enjoy being submissive (not strictly in the D/S sense), voices, dirty talk, public play, light bdsm and impact play, teasing, edging, passion, and much more. I will try almost anything except for scat, watersports, gore, harmful, or illegal practices. I am a sensualist and enjoy exploration of sex by engaging every sense and in every way.

I am very dedicated to this and take it very seriously. I will do my best to make myself available for you, fulfill any requests (I love requests), provide what you want, dress for you, fuck myself for you, etc. This can go anywhere we want it to (virtually, of course).

Above all else.... I am into conversation/dirty talk. I need to chat with you as often as possible, daily~ish would be ideal. Of course, real life always comes first for us both (work, family, obligations, etc.) and schedules and availability will vary. I do not want someone who only wants the physical without conversation. I am looking more for a beautifully filthy and engaging mind more than anything else. I believe that the mind is such an overlooked erogenous zone. But not any old dirty talk does it for me, either. Be creative and filthy. Don't tell me you want to crawl under my desk and lick my pussy while I work. Or at least, be more engaging and filthy about it. It is really difficult to offend me... Give me your primal filthy passion. I need it.

About you:

You are mature and know what you want. I don't care if you are married, cheating, or whatever your situation is. I'm not here to judge.

You are AT LEAST my age, but older is preferable.

You have a perfect body or you have a dad bod. It matters not, so long as you are confident. You take care of yourself, have your shit together, are confident, well-spoken, creative, high libido, communicative, and absolutely debauched. Physical attraction is definitely important, don't get me wrong.... But the mind/personality/vibe is the priority for me.

You are in my tome zone (EST) or no more than 1 time zone away. You are dedicated and will communicate regularly and often.

You are more dominant and will take the lead and guide me down our path of debauched delights. This does not mean that you will just throw commands my way without any kind of chemistry or connection behind it. That doesn't do it for me, I need more.

You genuinely want to participate in a mutually fulfilling and rewarding virtual FWB situation. You believe in reciprocity and don't mind sharing pictures, videos, etc. as the desire arises. I am so tired of everything being one-sided and everything falling on me. Tell me you made it this far by including a fun fact about yourself in your message to me, should you choose to reach out.

Also of note:

I am looking for online only, I'm not interested in changing anyone's situation.

I want something long term.

If you are younger than me, you need to make a very good case as to why I should respond to you.

If you reach out to me with an uninspired or one word message (or the like), you will be ignored.

Please please please be original. Intrigue me, make me want to pick you. Vanilla certainly has its place and I want to get to know you, but hit me with more than that in your message if you really want to get my attention.

Definitely reach out if this is appealing to you at all. I read all messages and interesting ones with the right vibe go to the head of the line. I promise you that if we hit it off, you won't regret it.