The title sums it up, but allow me to flesh it out a bit. People like me have to wear the mask every single day. The one that shows we are well adjusted, calm, happy. The mask that hides our darkness, what really goes on inside our head. This little mask muffles and prevents us from saying all the dark and dirty thoughts and words that struggle to burst forth from our lips. The mask that smothers my imagination and impulses down into nice boring socially acceptable little boxes.

I am actually looking for a genuine connection here. Long term, and with trust and emotional intimacy. I think that makes the type of broken toxic dynamic that much more real and gives it some depth. I’ll be nice sometimes, and not others.

One of the biggest things I want is power and freedom. The freedom to say whatever I want to say, and the power to influence and control another person. Their actions, words, thoughts and choices. More even. I want to be free to act upon whatever it is I want, and the power to see it carried out.

I’m here searching for someone I can be myself with. That I can be dark with. That will take the time to see me for what I am, under that mask of societal norms.

I seek someone broken, because I think they will be more accepting of what I am. Maybe even relating to the opposite but equal darkness they have.

I want you broken so you aren’t opposed to my will in your life. Shaping or guiding you. Controlling you. I want you damaged so that my power over you is a comfort rather than something to resist.

I don’t want to take all the societal cues on how to be a good little cog in the world. How to repress and recover from what I am. I want to act on my urges. I want someone who can handle it, who can take it. When I am angry and lash out, emotionally or physically, can take the damage.

My kinks are many, but some of them are as follows: tpe, orgasm control, degradation, humiliation, rough sex, toxic dynamics

See you soon