Never been with another man always seen myself as straight and only women but lately I have been having some serious urges to try. I feel I might have been missing out on something for so long and feel the need to act on these urges.

I have read guys say before that it's not an attraction to a man and like that I don't feel I find men attractive like that but it's more that I want to enjoy the pleasure of a man. I feel that I don't want certain things like I don't feel I could actually full on kiss with a man but I want to feel the sexual side of a man. I also don't think I could be with a guy who's really hairy I'm more a smooth shaved/waxed kind of guy. I feel like I am slightly lost with my place in the world.

I have expressed to my wife of wanting to experience bisexual cuckolding where she demands I do certain things and she like the idea during sex but after that it's never talked about again.

I just feel I want/need to experience a man's body before I never get to.

Sorry for the long post just felt I had to get this off my chest somewhere.