Been nearly a month since I told my wife. Never expected the rollercoaster of emotions that has transpired. Cried daily, had some of the best conversations for years and really don’t feel like I have found an emotional footing yet. Been asked questions I deserve to be asked, and asked ones I have wanted to ask for years.

Next steps are still unknown. Deleted apps to show my commitment to the conversation though my need to be with a man, tell people who the real me is, is growing so wild inside, I am worried I will crack.

Yesterday was a therapy/discussion free day and it was a great respite though I now feel like the emotions are all just back and even more intense.

Please tell me this starts to stabilize as I get to know who I really am more? Also that my wife learns to accept me as I am, and our relationship as it really is?

I think we can get there but the dread that we can’t makes me so emotional each time.