So I’ve been trying to find a way to “discuss” this… I have been dealing with a lot of inner turmoil in my sexuality. Before I found my current wife I was on a mission to experiment. I wasn’t necessarily into “the male figure” but I had experience with pegging and anal play. Natural (imo) I was excited by the idea of trans women. I had a few casual encounters, and they were terrific, but never really landed on a relationship as I was dealing with a lot of my own growth issues at 28 yrs old. Fast forward, u got married at 30 which seems fast but I did a lot of soul searching, and I find myself lost. After we got married I’m not sure what happened but the sex dropped off. I also was given a pretty stern “not gonna happen” with my less mainstream sexual thoughts. So here I am, remembering those hook ups without the traditional labels and yurning for them. I have to admit I started taking testosterone (doctor rx) and the thoughts are getting harder to fend off. Admittedly, I’m craving the pleasure only a penis can provide. I don’t want to cheat… but currently I’m jacking off 2-3 times a day as my wife basically wants nothing to do with me, she’s pregnant, and the bi fantasies of men and trans women are all I am having. I’ve even gone so far as to post on a local nsa… maybe looking for advice, honestly this is just a release for me. Likeminded ppl only can understand….