Just curious about if and when you had a first time experience and how that happened.

I grew up with a cousin and we used to stroke off to porn mags; this was way before internet :)

But I never thought of myself as bi or gay cuz it was always to pics of women etc.

When I was in college I found myself missing those stroke off times together and found myself everyonce in a while stroking to the thoughts of pics of big cocks I had seen or to teammates I had seen in the showers. But never even considered acting on it.

I had just graduated college and was a personal trainer at a rich country club and got to know a cool older guy there named Jim. He was probably mid 40s and in great shape. He would always chat with me about workouts, sports, etc. One day while talking he mentioned he was going through a divorce, I had seen his wife before and she was so hot. I asked him if it was ok to ask why they were getting divorced and he just said because he came out to being gay. I was shocked and surprised to say the least as he was a total masculine guy, drove a big truck the whole thing.

I just tried to act not surprised and acted as normal as I could.

Later that week I was the last staff at the gym and was cleaning up and making sure all was ready for closing. I went in the mens locker room and Jim was in the jacuzzi. I mentioned that I was closing up and he stood up and started getting out to dry off. I had never seen him in the locker room and definitely not naked. He had a massive uncut cock and I am sure he saw the ways my eyes got big when I saw it. Not in turned on sort of way but a holy fuck that is the biggest dick I have ever seen look. I had been on many sports teams and only saw one that was close to his before.

He then proceeded to ask me to join him after work for a few drinks and I agreed and we ended up in his sporting good store with me on my knees on a pile of soccer shorts sucking the; still to this day and probably for ever, seen as I dont hook up hardly ever, biggest thickest cock.

I guess I did not do a very good job as we never hooked up again. I know I was shaking and in shock I was doing it.