I have to get this off of my chest because it has been bothering me a lot. Lets just say that I am very happily married. He makes me feel very secure about myself and that is why I have never been the possessive and controlling type. This is the first time in our marriage that I have felt like this.

This year my husband and I went to a Halloween party. I admit that the "Maleficent" costume that I wore was showing a bit more boobage than is necessary to prove the point. I checked myself in the restroom and felt like Dang! This is too daring. My husband kissed me and said "You look lovely." After that, he took my arm and led me.

His ex-wife was also there with her husband. We have common friends so there have been times in the past, when we find ourselves together in some gatherings. We keep things formal and distant but still cordial. This time, I had a lot of eyes on me and I felt that her husband was noticing me a bit too much. She was not liking it.

My husband also gets touchy in times like these and that is his way of letting everyone know that I am taken and people do not see me as available. I saw that my husbands ex- was picking that up too and this woman had hate on her face. I looked at her and felt like this woman is dangerous! Anyone who looks at you like that can do things to you.

I did not like the vibe there so I asked my husband if we could leave? We left early.

Recently I received a lot of forwarded emails. These were all romantic emails that my husband had written to her many years ago when they were together. I realized that this crazy woman has gone so psychotic that she wants to rub those on my face? I did not even read them because this was crazy.

Now a couple of months later, I thought I should just go through them. I guess curiosity? I fell for it. Ever since I read those emails, I started to feel very uneasy. The way he was romancing her was quite different than the way he has been with me. Like he calls her his "rose petal." In other emails, he calls her "princess." I am his "MILF."

Since then my mind is going Princess VS MILF? Princess VS MILF? I loved it when he called me that. But now I find myself comparing. I do not know how the male mind works in such matters but who wins here guys? Princess or MILF? Similarly "Rose bud" vs "Tigress."

Me? MILF, TIGRESS,

Her? Rose Bud, Princess.

I know it is a very silly comparison but I can not help but compare. It bothering me. I wish I did not read those emails.