Hello all, I just found this sub in the past day and figured it was worth a shot asking here for insight. Also apologies if some of this sounds rambling, still trying to get my thoughts in order.

Starting from the end, my wife of almost 2 years is leaving because she is no longer in love with me, though she says she still loves and cares for me.

About a month ago I went on a weeklong business trip, first trip and first time we sleep separately since we moved in together 3 years ago. During the trip we only video chatted once. I texted every morning but after getting pretty dry responses didn't text the last morning and she didn't send anything until the afternoon. When I got back I brought up our lack of communication and she said it was from both of us and partly due to the time difference (1 hour). I could have done better I admit, so that was that.

For the past month (and during the trip) I've been having weird feelings, hard to put into words since it was unlike anything I had felt before. I tried talking to her about it a few times, see if she felt anything weird or off, but said no everytime and I felt better for a day before the feeling came back. Last weekend I finally realized that I was feeling unloved, and when I told her this she cried for a bit but didn't really say anything. The next day she told me she had something to say, and basically said she was no longer in love with me. That the week I was gone she realized that she no longer felt anxious or worried, that she could imagine her future apart from me, that I did nothing wrong, she just realized she was on a different path from me.

I've been trying to see if there's any way to work through this, asking her a lot of questions and possibilities, but she is adamant that there is nothing to be done, that we shouldn't have to change for each other and that's that. She always was very stubborn.

At first I didn't even know what to feel, I felt like I could fix it somehow. I was willing to do just about anything. I think I was manic for a day or something. Now I just feel numb, directionless, I'm trying to focus on myself and work just to distract myself, it works for a while but it's hard to focus or think.

I'm thinking maybe we married too young but she was perfect for me, and she often said I was perfect for her and what she expected of an ideal man and partner. I'm hoping she changes her mind, she's in the process of moving out, but I know deep down that she won't.

I cried a little when she hugged me, but haven't cried apart from that. I think I might be delusional or something. Don't have many feelings right now. Really feels like there's nothing else for me. I know I'm technically young still but I always imagined my life with her, and now I can't picture anything.

Anyways, I don't feel anything but a great loss, like a piece of me is missing. Partly just venting here, partly want to hear people's thoughts, partly want someone to tell me it's all going to be alright. Just writing this out helps. I'm feeling angry, but even that is better than the void. Even if no one has read this, it helps to organize my thoughts.