I need advice on using cannabis. I used to smoke daily (or semi-daily *at least 4x a week probably) and I would notice that I'd go through phases. I'd smoke more and more to a point where I'd be constantly paranoid or suspicious of people and I'd have a hard time being enjoyable around people and nice and happy. Then I'd stop for about a week and marvel in how much better I felt. Then I'd get back to it. Recently I quit (haven't smoked since Dec 1st) and I've felt so much better but I still miss weed. Getting high on other drugs isn't the same and it feels like I'm missing something. If love to be able to use again but I feel like it brings the worst out in me even when I'm sober! And I feel so much better now, I used to have a lot of derealization (felt like life wasn't real) and I feel like it dragged my personality down to be pretty boring (I'm much more upbeat now, like I used to be before I started smoking) and I'd be scared to speak to people which has gotten better. Much wider vocabulary now too. Idk I miss hearing music when I was stoned omg it was amazing, I miss the high so much though. Can I go back? Anyone have experience like this??? Moderation or what do I do