I have been lurking here and on r/molested but haven't posted yet. I was molested as a child multiple times by both men and women. I already knew that many issues arose from this, especially my hypersexuality and my kinks/ fantasies. One of the issues was with sexuality. I fantasize about sex with men but never truly felt gay or bisexual because I'm not attracted to men. Certainly not like I'm attracted to women. I've never found a man attractive like that. But I'm absolutely attracted to penises and sex with them. I only recently found out I'm not the only one thay feels that way. This was a huge revelation for me I knew it all stemmed from the SA but not specifically the not attracted to men but attracted to penises thing. This opened my eyes and helped me let go of so much internalized shame.