I feel like this is a truly pathetic way to post, but I'm honestly desperate for someone to reach out and be there for me. It's a long story, so please bear with me.

It's been an extremely rough year for me. My marriage has been rocky and meanwhile I've fallen in love with my best friend who lives across the country. I told my best friend my feelings for him which terrified me because I worried it would end our friendship, but it didn't. He said it changed nothing, but I can't help but be sad that he doesn't feel the same way about me. I think about him all the time and how happy he makes me. Not being able to be beside him because of the distance has made me grow incredibly depressed and my heart is breaking.

Meanwhile, I feel like I've been a terrible husband. I feel I've neglected my own spouse with my love for my best friend and all my priorities were redirected. I want to save my marriage, but I'm so confused and upset and don't know where to go from here. I'm unhappy where I am and want to make a new start, but I can't imagine a life without my husband or my best friend who lives across the country.

I'd like a friend who would be like a big brother to me, someone who will check in with me daily to see how I'm doing, someone who will help take care of me (something I feel I'm lacking from anyone), and someone I can ultimately talk to about anything and have fun with. If you'd like to do some gaming together, I'm down. I just could really use a good friend who lets me cry on their shoulder while they tell me everything is going to be okay.