I spent the past few months building an amazing relationship. With this woman I fell very fast, and felt this amazing connection. She said she did too, I want to believe her so much, yet I have been lied to so much in the past I just don’t even know right now. I haven’t felt this shattered in such a long time. I often wonder, if being who I am has things to do with it. Yes I am doing well in my work life, very well. Yes, I hustle and have more than one good paying income and working on more. I don’t give my life to work however, I use that to make sure I can live, and then I put a whole heart into her, and it is very rare I find that her. I just don’t get what I am doing wrong.
If you are feeling kind, I wouldn’t mind someone to talk to while I am taking a very long walk today. Yes I know how hot it is outside and what a bad idea this really is but I am so up inside my own mind right now I am in hell. Honestly have been in hell for the past few weeks because she started to do that whole bit they all do; withholding affection, ignoring me, making me feel less than. I am likely not going to talk about how I feel or how down I am about the relationship. Its not how I am, I have learned that I have to suffer in silence more often than not. For me, just having someone to talk to is more than enough if at all possible.

While it maybe complementary to you, please ladies do not make passes at me. Already had 3. Don't want anymore. I am just fresh a few hours from having my heart ripped out. I just want a friend to voice chat with while I hike. Nothing more.