So. In the last 3 weeks I've almost taken myself for a stay at the hospital twice. It got pretty low. I'm still struggling. But some good things are happening and it's bringing out some light in my soul. In February I weighed 285. I just weighed myself (which made me want to post this bc I'm really pretty happy about it) and I'm at 249.2. I haven't been at this weight since I was in college. 13 almost years ago. I got out of bed get get a brand new paddle board I had bought on Amazon. It was just dropped off an hour ago. I cleaned out my trunk and got it in my trunk ready to go for after worm this summer. I get off at 3pm and we have a large lake right down the road from where I work. I've been looking forward to this bc I love paddle boarding and being out in the hot sun on water. And to top it off for everything to happen on the same day I am now 4 months along with no alcohol. Realizing how long it's been since I've drank and how much I've lost I am feeling pretty proud of myself. And today is just a little bit easier.