When I say I'm smart, funny, this and that the layman thinks this is just me bragging so I can attract people. And I mean. It's a good guess? It's a smart guess. Most people come here to find friends, so showing off who you are and what you are about is a good idea. But. It's because I'm those things that I don't have to do that. All I gotta do is. BE MYSELF. And people come. And thats the problem. People. Come. Not the individual I want to get to know and build with and soar through this world together. Just. People.

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I don't have trouble meeting. People. I work hard. And the above things I mentioned. Those are good traits. No matter where I go. No matter what I do. I make friends. I don't even have to speak anymore. People just approach me. Babies. Grandmas. Thicc grandmas. They come at me. Curvy.

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What I have trouble with. What I post for. Is finding my person. My type of person. Someone of integrity. Which is a huge one. Cause integrity is that thing. This is how I describe it and I think how it was described to me.

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" Who are you when no one is watching?"

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Compassion. Empathy. You guys here try to put those traits into overtime. I'm not about it. I'm not gonna enter your life with a myriad of hangups you need to immediately coddle me over, and I expect the same. If thats mean. Well I'm mean then.

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Oh. Bonus round. If you're in Central FLorida. Join me for pizza tomorrow. I'm going to get some.

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I was gonna write more, but I already have so much trouble posting here with the myriad of stupid censorship things that go down. So.

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I like who I am when no one is watching. There's no performance art here. If I hate, I hate out loud. If I love I love out loud. I can do that now. I have reached a level of comfort in my person that I never thought I was going to reach. And it's not over. I know that much. I know I have a long path ahead cause there's still hangups I have. I know that much. But I know. My mindset. THe path I'm on? It will only lead me to a good place. Because it is born of the ultimate goal. Self love.

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Basically. I'm a work in progress, but the person I am now? Great. If you aren't similar. Pass me by. Or maybe you are finished with your work. Pass me by for SURE then. Hahaha no one is ever finished. Life isn't so easy.