I wish I coulda been a big brother. I would dote the hell out of my little sibling. Squeezing them and hugging them and giving them tiny kisses.

Honestly. The weird animosity and apathy my friend has for his siblings gives me the creeps. As the big brother you set the stage. So if the play isn't going properly who is the one to blame?

Hmm. It just came to me. While watching this anime. He was worried about his lil sis getting wet in the rain so he gives her an umbrella. Little shit like that. The little moments. That's what I'm here for.

Everyone wants these dramatic epic conversations with "banter" that goes down in history or some bullshit. But all I want is to share pictures of the cute bunnies I saw when I went walking. Or tell stories of the funny baby that made a mad dash towards me while I was going to work looking like they wanted to hug the hell out of me.

Or to talk about how wet and cold it was tonight. For Florida.

My friends clown me " Florida isn't cold". Sure. It's not. But if your state suddenly dropped 50 degrees from where it normally is and you weren't affected I'd probably report you to the science division in the government that dissects freaks.

I mean. That wasn't the case yesterday but. It has been the case.

I don't like to engage in "big" talk. For one simple reason. One easy to understand simple reason.

If I'm not going to actively do something about it, then it doesn't matter to me. Talk is for action. To set up action. To declare action. I can pass the time reading. Or gaming. Or training. Or doing any other one of my many many hobbies. I don't need to talk to pass time.

And that's where I lose you guys.

I don't talk here because I'm sad. Or lonely. Or whatever negative verb or adjective you can think of.

I come here because there isn't a single place I have found that has a higher concentration of people I'd be most likely to get along with.

The way I use reddit is to find people. Of like minds. Of differing opinions on non extreme things. Like if I'm team " slavery is bad" and you're team.

" Well AKSCHUALLY"

That's unfortunately not a valuable stance or opinion that I need circulating me. Or that type of mindset. I don't see it's value. We don't have to agree on everything but if our core values don't align. I won't respect you, and if you can tolerate someone not respecting you? Yikes. Double no.

To share ideas. To build. To network. To create an environment of care. And uplifting.

I say this and a lot of the time people like it and reach out. Not realizing that to be this type of friend requires effort. And conviction.

And if you don't have these. I. Don't know why you're approaching. You're not my target audience.

Oh I also use reddit for ideas. For things I want to do in the real world. For cinema ideas. For looking at cute animal pictures. For looking up thicc ladies.

One of my dreams is to find a thicc curvy lady and love on them. It's a far off dream, but one I work towards every day.

Anyway I've been studying a lot of Spanish, but I fucking suck. At language studying. Or. Hm. If I'm being honest that might NOT be the case and it's more I'm not giving it the respect it deserves like I was doing Japanese and forgot all the progress I was making there before I put it on the back burner for Spanish.

Hmmm. I don't know why I'm bullshitting. Like I'm not watching one of my new favorite anime and for some reason paused to write this.

I guess I was just easily moved by the scene. To be fair I've been getting moved heavily by this one anime I was watching.

I finally get to train again tomorrow. With my bow. Back when I was training. My accuracy is ass.... I mean. I'm no Olympic archer. But I can uh make them go in the relative area? Hahahah. But my quick shooting was shaping up pretty nicely. My reflexive shooting.

It's funny. Every time I bring up archery the people I know bring up guns.

" Guns are better hurr duurr"

Well...ok? I can use those too? 😅

Anyway. Introduce yourselves. You guys are always so weird about this it's insane. Who are you? I DONT KNOW YOU. I'm gonna hit post and then jump back into anime land and just forget all about this. I know a lot of you guys that post know this.

So many times I immediately forget I write these things and then I'll go to write another one. But then there's one already there.

I want single friends.

Oh man. This is far too long 😅

If in Florida will be given alpha priority.

If not will be sad. But will reply. Just know I'll be like 😔 the entire time. Because of you.

My sadness aura is stronger than 5 sad puppies.