I was just looking to have a fun afternoon. I didn’t expect this. I realized how much my old doggy is suffering and how selfish I’ve been to make her keep going on. I laid on the floor with her and cried for hours.

But this isn’t just a personal epiphany, this is literally making a life and death decision based on what I learned on a trip. I knew she was hurting all the time but I really watched her all day and she is so much worse than I thought.

Idk I guess I feel weird because the lesson learned might actually result in a euthanasia. Can I really do this based on a trip?

I’m gonna just watch her far more closely when not tripping and see what I see. Maybe it was just the mushies, maybe I will see that it really is time. Feels weird though, I’m literally considering having my dog put down based off of a trip and that freaks me out

Edit to add: this girl literally saved my life twice in my hero!n days, Our bond is so special it is breaking my heart