Really, I feel like I need to move home. I'm currently in college and living 2 hrs away from my family in the city I go to college at. This hadn't been an issue until about December. My mental health spiraled and I started cutting again. I haven't cut myself since January, btw. But I constantly feel anxious and paranoid. I don't feel safe living by myself.

I'm staying here over the summer this year because I have an internship. I want to quit my internship and move home so so much. I do generally enjoy my internship but it isn't worth the pain living here causes me. However, I have very little work experience and I'm worried I won't be able to get a job after I graduate in December for this reason. Also, my family will be disappointed in me and perceive me as a quitter. They're already disappointed in me for majoring in something completely useless, and I'm disappointed in myself for majoring in something useless that I don't even enjoy.