its my throwaway acc my main account is probably goin to have a depression or suicide watch post later when i sink lower so.. yea.. just dont care right now

Im just havin a bad day already mentally and because im just a real nice person i cant help but keep the word sorry comin out my mouth. But yea.. im a mess what since like.. sunday..? Not like i can blame my dad for his shit talk and criticism i just blame myself its easier... cant make anyone proud so.. its just my fault even if im doing my best its not enough...

So.. idk what else to put or how to end this... maybe just... yall have a good day, stay positive, do good in this life, work hard.. change yourself for the better before you change your world.... im sorry

Editin: i feel like i made a mistake posting this...