intro: I am not a very smart man. I am a 30 year old man child. Grew up in a well off family so I was spoon fed everything in life. Pissed away every advantage and opportunity I had, cruised through life like nothing mattered. Recently grew a brain though (still working on growing that spine and pair-o-balls). Finished college, got an engineering degree/license, got a job at the local telco, got a CCNA certification, quit smoking, found a better paying job as a network engineer and here we are.

Now I recently began hating my new company. There are 3 engineers to 10 salespeople. This means we do estimation, design and implementation for at least 5 simultaneous projects. I know I shouldn't complain. I should be grateful I have a decent paying job. I should be proud to be exhausted after doing 12 plus hours of honest work. I should be fucking happy but I feel like throwing myself off the 30th floor everyday..... anyways, anyone got some good news? happy thoughts to share? advice?. Hell, gimme anything to get me spirits up.

Thanks in advance from a whiny fuck up piece of shit piss poor excuse of a human being.