So I fell in love with a dominatrix femdom woman while rolling, was fun and all but I have mixed feelings now since my brain was rewired. At the time she had me hooked up to a milking machine hospital roleplay where my whole body was wrapped up in a very tight black leather cast with some holes in it for my asshole, cock, and to breathe. Anyways, she was verbally degrading me the whole time she was controlling the dildo thrusting in and out of my asshole & cock vaccum-milker & I found myself developing serious feelings for her while she was making me feel like a subhuman. Well, the aftermath of this amazing session is.. now I am in love, in order to even see pics of her I need to send her payments, let alone talk to her. She charges me so much money for in person contact/sessions, but I can’t stop since I’m in love. And she is so mean to me, yet I love it so much & ik its toxic af, but I just cannot seem to get enough. At this rate I’ll end up a homeless dom-junkie only making a living for these sessions. How do you unfuck your brain after its been rewired like this?