I had MDMA for the first time on Friday. It was a beautiful experience. Now I'm dealing with the comedown effects. I feel like I just want a body close to me and that I am craving affection. I recognize that this is a part of the comedown but I just wanted to put this out somewhere and for it to be read.

I live in a culture where affection isn't utilized as much. So we don't hug our friends or family too much.

I don't want to take anything like 5-HTP or whatnot because I want to experience the full effect of MDMA to see what it's like. Maybe there are some emotions I need to process that I'm running from by seeking out affection.

I feel very sad right now.